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1/29

These earrings. I bought them from the DYT store, and I wear them because they're basic, but I don't love them. I honestly couldn't tell you what I don't love, but I really only pick them up when I've realized I have worn my pointy earrings too frequently.

DYT has led me to realize that life is too short to wear boring work pants. These yellow jeans are my favorite.

1/26

I got such a positive response from my silly pose yesterday, I couldn't help trying to get a few laughs today.

I may have mentioned that at my last haircut, she didn't have trimmers, so I've been letting the undercut grow out. It's so spiky and all over the place, so I keep trying to tame it without success. Some days, it works, and others not so much.

1/25

Midterm week is hard. My schedule was all messed up, so an end of the day selfie with the makeup all gone. I look much better in selfies with no makeup than I used to. Must be the clothes.

1/24

This top is my Use it or Lose it today. I use it because I do like it, but I have some confidence issues about whether it fits properly, because it feels tightish through the bodice and back. My husband assures me it doesn't LOOK like it fits poorly, so I keep it.

I also wasn't happy with how my hair turned out today, so took some goofy like photos. I've since unclipped it and I'm just letting it be. This is a reason I question my "secondary;" do things like this bug me because I'm an S4, or because of my whole life being spent with an S4's judgement in my ear?

1/23

 

Inspired by Use it or Lose It, I pulled some items I haven't worn in awhile. This necklace was hiding in a suitcase. I haven't worn this blouse/sweater combo all school year. These earrings feel MEH for me, so I guess they're my real Use it or Lose it.

1/22

1/19

Yesterday was not a good DYT day. I was questioning my type; did I type myself wrong AGAIN? For all THIS TIME????

I've concluded that I do not look like any of the other Type 3 women. There's often a thread about women looking like sisters, and I don't see anyone who looks the littlest bit like me.

I also don't get compliments anymore. I've gained weight.

These were supposed to be things that STARTED HAPPENING when dressing your truth.

So I complained in a little facebook group of DYT ladies, and got a tremendous amount of support. And also "maybe your secondary is even."

THAT gave me a flash. Maybe I'm all or nothing AND light and bouncy. It's why the light can switch so fast.

I did my hair differently today, and another flash---it's this blunt cut haircut that's giving me the feeling. Hide those straight lines and I feel much better.

1/18

My Use it or Lose It item for day didn't even leave the house with me. Too big, too much, too everything.

 I'm feeling very OFF on DYT. Like I don't fit in with a type 3, like maybe I'm not a Type 3.

But nothing else fits. Type 2 seems so far off the mark. Type 1 is so not right that I only lasted a week, and Type 4 was about the same. I couldn't even tell you what my style actually is if it isn't type 3, since I've gotten rid of almost everything that doesn't fit.

1/17

1/16

I have a love-hate relationship with these shoes. I love how they look, but hate how they feel. I'll try to sell them.

1/13

My husband and I finally went out for a night alone. I wore this with my tall brown boots; my ankle boots have apparently disappeared.

1/12

Today, I'm thinking about being "too much." I don't even mean BEING too much, but LOOKING too much.

I look in the mirror, and think "It's just too much... too much hair, too much makeup." I went into a meeting with a new person, and wondered how she perceived me with my crazy hair sticking up all over the place and my bright lips.

Too much.

I feel like I look older than when I started this process.

I just don't know. I didn't start DYT to be in a permanent state of self doubt. But here I am...

Anyway, so it's Friday and I wear red at work on Fridays. I'll go to my volunteer job and wear a blank tee.

1/11

 I love my new mermaid sneakers, which coincidentally match my l/s tee pretty perfectly.

Submitting this cardigan, which I've had for 5+ years, for Use it or Lose It.

1/10

Teacher version of a business trip.

1/9

So I didn't wash my hair again. This is 2 day hair. It worked well, I think.

I also purchased new eye makeup and blusher. I love the eyeliner, but you cannot see it all here. The eyeshadow, I'm not sold on.

 

1/8

1/7

Got my hair did finally. Went to a new stylist. She cut it pretty straight, which is a bit annoying, but I like how it turned out.